看着你离开的背影，我仿佛像失去了控制似的狂流泪。哭了好几天，才慢慢的平复那澎湃汹涌的心情。我逼自己不去想你，不再和你有任何关系，好想干脆和你一刀两断。和你走了那么远的路，你竟可以二话不说狠狠的把我抛下在一条孤单的路。我，傻傻的，在等你出现。我相信你会回来和我一起完成这条难堪的路。看见人来人往的一条街，始终盼不了你的身影。在这条路上，看到五彩的人生 － 欢喜，悲伤。。。我渐渐的发现，他的心，永远永远不会是我的。开始的时候，我就应该察觉到这点，不该在过后才明白。可惜在我领悟的当时，他，已离开我了。为他放弃了种种梦想，放弃了自己的一切。做的每一间事情都是为他着想。无能为力的，他还是放不下从前。我，也那么的失败 － 不单输了给自己，也输了给他的回忆录。。。艺人张柏芝说的：“我是爱情里的大输者”，而我，是输得彻底。。。
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
17th of April
“Do you still remember our rendezvous on 17th of April?” I said. Unfortunately, the answer I got from you isn’t what I’m looking for. Yes, you did remember. The con is you can’t make it for me anymore. I think you really do forget it’s my birthday. I don’t put the blame on you because astatically, we have no relationship but friends only. I’m holding my phone and at the sixes and sevens whether I should message you today. I don’t wish to awake and find there’s no body next to me.
Guess that on my coming birthday, its going to be the type of morning that I have really grown to deplore – grey, dismal, cold and alone. These few days I am hoping I could receive a message from you, but it seems I’m barking up the wrong tree. Everyday when I’m home, I’ll get my phone on without more ado to check whether is there any messages from you. And I always turn myself down.
Perhaps it’s a huge dream for me to make all these reality. Days without you are really harsh for me. I’ve used with hearing your voice everyday, message you and getting cheer up by you. As you’ve gone, my life is being so vacantly, so heartache. No matter how hard I try, you don’t give me a damn. What makes our acquaintance, our faith to break such effortlessly?
Anyhow, I’m still waiting you to be in my birthday. Would you be there for me?
Guess that on my coming birthday, its going to be the type of morning that I have really grown to deplore – grey, dismal, cold and alone. These few days I am hoping I could receive a message from you, but it seems I’m barking up the wrong tree. Everyday when I’m home, I’ll get my phone on without more ado to check whether is there any messages from you. And I always turn myself down.
Perhaps it’s a huge dream for me to make all these reality. Days without you are really harsh for me. I’ve used with hearing your voice everyday, message you and getting cheer up by you. As you’ve gone, my life is being so vacantly, so heartache. No matter how hard I try, you don’t give me a damn. What makes our acquaintance, our faith to break such effortlessly?
Anyhow, I’m still waiting you to be in my birthday. Would you be there for me?
你给的依靠，我放不掉，你给的微笑，还在嘴角...
听着石欣卉的<<你给的>>，真的让我对自己和他有了另一番的感触。歌里唱着的“你给的依靠，我放不掉，你给的微笑，还在嘴角”真的触动我的心。好久没听到一首能让我为他而流泪的歌了。这次，的确地让我对爱情掀起了涟漪，掀起了回忆。想回我和他第一次牵手的时候，那一丝的信任，把世界任何东西都比了下去。我和他互望的眼神，好坚定，好安定。尤其是他的微笑，让我好难忘。其实我早已该知道他从不爱我，他，也不属于我的。我不了解为什么还要横冲直幢的冒险，不明白为什么每一次要被伤害后，自己才肯醒过来。。。好累，真的好累。我，很爱你，很想你。我心里的话，你，可曾知道吗？
“你给的依靠，我放不掉，你给的微笑，还在嘴角,你会看到，我的改变有多少。。。”依然在耳边回响着。。。
“你给的依靠，我放不掉，你给的微笑，还在嘴角,你会看到，我的改变有多少。。。”依然在耳边回响着。。。
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